The Princess Tails

The Musings of Zena, a Tibetan Terrier sharing her life and wisdom with Raffles, a Standard Poodle

Princess Perfect

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So. Here I am minding my own business when I started thinking.

I know!

Me? Thinking.

Zac would have had some sarcastic remarks to make around about now. He was always the thinker, the wise one, the watcher of the world and television. As you know I was the ditzy one. The perennial puppy. The carefree, play-all-the-time Princess. Thinking was Zac’s department, living life to the fun was mine.

Since Zac left us that has been changing. And this morning I woke with thoughts buzzing around in my head.

And I found that when I started I couldn’t stop.

A good thinking position for me and one I choose often.

A good thinking position for me and one I choose often.

Why now I wondered? My hair is growing longer so maybe it’s a little like that Sampson guy from the bible that I’ve heard mentioned. You know. The guy who lost his strength with his hair cut off. Maybe I need long hair to think?

See - the hair is definitely growing.

See – the hair is definitely growing.

Or perhaps it’s just watching the youngsters in the park. I’m six now and the oldest of the Poodle Pack. I have to face facts. I’m growing up. Maybe this is maturity?

Or perhaps it’s just that some of the things I’ve been through have changed me. They do say that don’t they? Whatever we go through in life can make us stronger if we let it. Choose whether you become better or bitter.

I don’t wish to sound like a broken record but I am realising that this began when Zac died. Up until that point I was happy, safe and I didn’t think anything bad could happen.

We escaped from the garden once and ran through the streets having a ball. When The Help found us she was so relieved and I heard her saying we could have been killed but to us it was a great adventure. Nothing bad could happen to us. Could it?

Then of course it did. Zac crossed over the Rainbow Bridge and I was alone.

I took to the new bed The Help bought for me and rarely left it.

I slept all day.

I went out for a walk but stayed close to The Help’s legs and didn’t sniff or relate to the other dogs at all. I didn’t really see the park and I wasn’t interested in catching up with anyone.

I found that I couldn’t really respond when the family came to call. Even Miss Seven (now Miss Eight) couldn’t get me to leave my bed.

All my toys stayed neatly in their basket in the corner of the room.

Just going out into the garden was a huge effort for me. I didn’t want to do anything.

My head was just filled with fear, confusion and negativity.

I was still eating but I wasn’t really tasting. It was mechanical. I guess I still had that instinct to survive even though I had no joy in that survival. I was going through the motions.

I didn’t know it at the time but The Help did. I was depressed.

I had to go to the vet for my normal vaccinations and he offered some medicine. The Help and The Boss didn’t want to go that route.

It’s not that they’re against medication. They would have used it as a last resort but they were pretty sure they knew what I needed.

Anyway after those couple of occasions when I ate the pretty coloured stuff and went yellow (blush of embarrassment) my liver hasn’t been so good so they really didn’t want to give me anything if they didn’t have to.

Sometimes medication is needed but I wasn’t chewing myself or causing self-harm. I was just very, very sad. It wasn’t straight forward grieving either, it was depression.

I had had no experience of loss. I had been protected all my life. I’d left my puppy family and the same day I moved in with Zac and he loved me and protected me and spoiled me. He made sure I was never frightened.

Reality hit and I didn’t know how to cope. Hence the depression.

The Help and I would sit and chat about Zac and she would try and comfort me. They would take me everywhere with them as I would howl when they didn’t!

Depression is an awful thing. I had no control over it. It was a thick blanket that smothered me and I did not have the strength to get out.

Then The Help and The Boss came up with the idea of getting Raffles.

They decided that the best thing for me was for me to have another pal in the house not to replace Zac but another pal for me to form a relationship with. I was quite interested. A puppy. I like puppies. Puppies are little and cute and you can curl up with them – right?

Well you all know the story of MY puppy. He was nothing like that.

Cute? Huh!

Little? Definitely not.

Cuddle up with? Not unless I fancied losing a spleen from a crush injury!

But it did help that I wasn’t alone any more. And there was no way I could pretend that this was another Zac.

He may have looked like a minor mountain, but he acted all puppy which made it quite dangerous for a while there.

And this I believe, was the beginning of my becoming a little more aware. A little more responsible. I’m the mature one in the house. If the pup gets scared he comes to me!

Early days when we could both fit in my bed!

Early days when we could both fit in my bed!

Even though he has always been big and not my idea of a puppy, those first few weeks didn’t really prepare me for the present day giant that he has become.

My beautiful bed was briefly able to take the two of us.

And at the beginning when we went out for walks he would just follow where I went.

On his first trip to be groomed I had to go with him. Now he is gaining in confidence and it is great to see. I feel I have helped him to become who he is today.

There are times when I feel quite proud of how he is turning out.

He is becoming quite a handsome chap and a credit to my training.

He is becoming quite a handsome chap and a credit to my training.

I have tried to get him interested in television.

As you may remember Zac was a great one for television. He would watch anything. He loved the funniest videos, he’d bark at dogs and he hated horses. He’d growl at the bad guys with guns and he’d have to run and get big dog during the scary movies.

I’m not into television in the same way but I do still bark and run to the tv set whenever a dog comes on the screen. Even cartoon dogs. Raffles runs with me but because he has no idea what we’re doing he usually runs me over! He just doesn’t seem to see the screen.

This has made me wonder what else I should teach him.

I have told him a little of his Mum and Dad and where he comes from but I think I may teach him a little of the family history. There have been quite a few dogs in The Help’s past and it might be interesting to briefly talk about them. In a way, they helped to form her and therefore us.

Then of course there is the ongoing puppy training which The Boss is still doing with Raffles.

Every evening he takes Raffles into the garden for leash practice and to reinforce sitting and staying. I feel it is my duty to participate and give the kid support. So I go along too. But being a perfect Princess I don’t need the lead. When The Boss says sit I sit because I get a treat too πŸ™‚ I think it helps the kid to know I can do all this stuff – when I want to of course.

Zac was very firm on the ‘come’ command. He told me early on that you only obey that one when you are sure there is something good being offered. Half the time, he told me, they just want to lock you in the house and go out or they want to have someone interesting over and for some reason you’re not going to get to meet them.

I haven’t been able to convey that to Raffles. He just seems to want to do the right thing. Sometimes I wonder what Zac would do and I reckon he’s probably laughing at me from his soft bed on the Rainbow Bridge. He’s probably enjoying the peace and quiet up there without me!

Getting Raffles helped. It took time but I am out of the depression. The experience has changed me though and I am only just realising how much. I choose not to be bitter. I will be better.

I like to think and plan my lessons in comfort :-D

I like to think and plan my lessons in comfort πŸ˜€

So I have been thinking. And I’m thinking that I need to pass some wisdom onto the pup.

This is new for me so I’m going to start slowly. I’m going to start by going backwards.

Yep. Zac is definitely laughing!

I’m going to go way, Way, WAY back in the past and tell you and the pup a little about the ones who have been before us and helped to train The Help! And this might shock you but there have been a few cats in there too. It doesn’t shock you? Well it shocked me!

I think we’ll start with Jason, the Irish Red Setter, coming to a blog near you very, very soon πŸ™‚

Love from Zena, the Perfect Princess

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Author: Zena

I am The Princess (aka Zena), niece of Zac the All Black and awesome Tibetan Terrier who took me in when I was just a six week pup and tried to teach me all he knew. When I was six and he was eight, Zac crossed over the rainbow bridge and all of a sudden I was alone. I could no longer be the ditzy, happy-go-lucky pup that I had been. This is a diary of how one Princess managed when the world turned real.

38 thoughts on “Princess Perfect

  1. Oh Zena!
    Me is quite excited to hears yous will talks about those who comed before! This will be fun!
    And Yes, me knows about the depression. We would not even eat when Hissy old Licorie went over the bridge. Me thinks Kozmo is a BRAT, but me knows he has helped me too!
    Kisses
    Nellie

    • πŸ™‚ Sounds like we share the same sort of feelings towards the furmates sharing our large kennel πŸ™‚
      Yes, delving into the past fur-life of The Help could be very, very interesting….

  2. Zac would want you to go forward and be positive.

  3. Oh Zena that was lovely and sad.. Zac would be laughing at you now πŸ™‚ as Kyla said, go forward and be positive πŸ™‚ xx00xxx

    Mollie and Alfie

    • πŸ™‚ I am wondering if Zac somehow steered The Help to Raffles as a ‘comeback’ gift to me πŸ˜€
      Hope you’re okay Mollie. Worried about your Alcatraz moment!

  4. Cats, huh? I’m not shocked at all, can’t wait to hear about these stories πŸ™‚
    And Princess, Always look at the bright side of life, I’m sure that would be Zac’s first lesson πŸ™‚

  5. Zena your fur has grown back quickly πŸ™‚

  6. I can’t wait to learn more about your family tree!

  7. Hi Zena…I’m sure Zac had a LOT to do with Raffles coming into your life…the ultimate GIGANTIC challenge – the kind of challenge Zac knew you could handle. Raffles doesn’t know he’s huge….he just knows you’re the leader of the “mini-pack” at home and he indeed learns from you which is a big responsibility of course. I’m glad you’re no longer depressed – your humans and your little/huge brother need you to be on top of your game just like a true Princess. Can’t wait to hear about “the ones who came before” with your family – cats too huh? Well, SOME of us aren’t so bad now…..are we???? πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

    Kitty Hugs, Sammy

    • I’m so glad Sammy, that I go to know some of you guys before the shock was sprung on me. In fact, The Help tells me that one of her first and favourite cat looked a little like you!

  8. Oh Zena we are so sorry to hear of the rough time you have gone through. Mom says she can relate as she too wrestles with “the depression” but she says you should be very, very proud of yourself and how far you have come.

    We look forward to reading more about you and Raffles.

    Wally & Sammy

    • Depression is a terrible thing so I feel for your Mum. You’ll have to take good care of her and let her know she is loved and special. hugs Zena

  9. The only one who “came before” me….was a cat!

    • I hope it wasn’t too much of a shock when you learnt that Dakota. On the bright side it means you’re dealing with a clean slate and can really train them from the beginning without any former bad training to overcome πŸ™‚

  10. I agree Zena… Zac is always in my heart and I will never forget the one and only “all black”.
    I think you have the perfect “Thinker-position”, even Mr. Rodin would produce his “Thinker-sculpture” exactly in this position. But at last you are the Princess and the coach of Raffles and if you ask me, you are a perfect coach and a perfect Princess. btw: I like the haircut of Raffles :o)

    • Thanks. I’ll pass on the comment to Raffles and The Boss. The Boss is wanting it shorter – what is it with wanting to cut the hair????
      I have no idea why I am laughed at when I’m in my thinker/sleep position – all the blood rushes to my brain and it supercharges it. Everyone should try it πŸ™‚

  11. Hey, this is sounding more and more interesting… looking forward to the next installation πŸ˜‰

  12. Zac would be proud of what a great big sibling you are to Raffles!

  13. Looking forward to hearing all about the past furries in your household!

  14. What a bittersweet post Zena…My Cecil Marie went into a deep depression when “her” dog Murphy went OTRB…but she took over the training of Bruno and that helped her through…Raffles may be a goofy boy but his heart is good and he’d do anything for you…Zac would want you to pass on the wisdom…

    • People don’t always realise that we furballs can suffer from depression too. And you are so right about Raffles. He can’t always control his legs but his heart is in the right place.

  15. I’m not really shocked about the cats in the past. Cats are generally very good at training bipeds and it sounds as though yours are fairly well-trained.
    You’re doing really well at training that puppy, he is a credit to you. I’m sure Zac would be proud of how you’ve stepped up and taken on more responsibility.

    • Thanks Clowie. I’m just sorry Zac isn’t here so I could sympathise with him for all the trouble I put him through. Though if he was here still, he would be doing the training!

  16. I’m sure Zac was feels very loved that he inyour thoughts a lot Zena, and perhaps he is giving you some of his wisdom! I love the pictures of you and Raffles cuddling you guys look so precious!!!! And I always love Raffles classic poodle do, so cute. Have a good day you guys. Hugs Leah andkirby

  17. ahhhh…Zena…you too have secrets in the furramily to share…so pawsome of you to be so brave to do so…I l look forward to learning from your growing wisdom…I have only today had an experience with what another cat in our furramily might mean for me…an only cat…and my learning was not pretty

  18. Lovely post. I really liked the pictures, specially the one when both could fit in the same bed.

    Shakti

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